stumbling down the streets i’ve walked

countless times before,

something

seems so unfamiliar.

sidewalks racing beneath us.

streetlights, i swear,

shining only for you.

elevator doors i won’t remember tomorrow

and finally

falling into a bed that holds me

and you pull me closer.

stomach on the balcony,

heart patters like rain on glass walls in my ears,

head,

chest,

rib cage cracking from the beating,

the knocks of an unexpected visitor

and i’m scared to let him in.

the party is invite only, after all

but who am i to stop the stars from being

painted across the sky?

our bodies,

bones and skin,

lining up as constellations.

in between your cheek and mine,

lives an unexplainable longing

for the boy wrapped around me

that makes my eyelids dance

with the candle flame’s flicker.

i miss him

even as he sleeps beside me.